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"... And then my man came on the royal ride, my knight in shining armor." Thump! I feel down my bed. Hitting my head hard, scratching my forehead, I got up realizing I slept for straight 10hours. Gathering my sanity, I got up from the floor quickly. It was pretty late and I had to meet this person, whom I never had even talked to before. I know it sounds weird, but then if you don't do weird, you never know the normal or even find one. And as a fact, more the weird, more the fun. Ah well, I needed to rush. I moved quick n fast coz punctuality is what I follow and expect as well. "8:30 sharp" was the plan of action. I was hurrying coz already I was late, making up to the place at 8:35. And lo, I made it relatively early coz there were no signs of him for next 20mins. 'Minus 1!' I made up my calculations quickly. And then comes him, a new face altogether. And I din't realize that I am going to spend my first ever first meet for nearly 5hr...

Upbeat and happy, I entered the waiting area. I was going to meet my love after a long time. Staying at a distance doesn't really draw you apart but keeps the enthusiasm and longing to see each other. Two hours in the waiting was not really bad coz I love watching the crowd anonymously. The way they interact, the mannerisms in which they communicate. It is amusing and awesome. While I was trying to read the minds of people around, I encountered a known face. I have a knack of knowing people who may be won't know me; but I may know them coz I had just seen them somewhere. But this case was different. I knew her. And I was sure she din't know me. She was trying to read the newspaper. It was 8 in the evening. The news must've gone stale by now. But she was, trying to avoid people, trying to avoid any sort of conversations. She was behaving anxious.  I wanted to read her mind and know what's with her. I had known about her 2yrs ago, every detail about h...

It was hot outside. I still rushed out on the street. It was a promise I had to fulfill. Earlier today, working on my routine, the phone beeped. "Hey there, Good morning. Wondering if I can bowl you over?" Stupid stupid message! I answered pissed, "Have you lost it today? Early morning? Try making some sense." At first I was sure he is drunk. Coz he is never this insane. Knowing him for last 6months made me realize he is pretty much a normal, sane and amazing guy. And yes, amazing, as he just knows me at my best and the crankiest ever with pitch perfection. "I was just saying, step out and come to The Street Park. I have something in mind for you." The first text did enough damage. I din't feel like responding. But I did. "Why? Is it my birthday? I don't need a special. Drop by the coffee shop if you want or go get some sleep." I guess girls do this to all the guys. Don't really have to be cute all th...

How do I tell you how much do I love you? How do I tell you how much you mean to me? How do I not say a word to annoy you? How do I discern my stupidity? I really don't know what went wrong… I really din't know if I could hurt you that hard… Trust me by lord I never meant to mean… I have been a bit off the grid coz of the times on me... I know just one thing, I love you so much that anything n everything without you seems useless… I am addicted to you like an alcohol shot… You are my routine and my life, staying away not knowing is like being shot… Please Darling come back to me… I can't be myself without you by my side… In my heart inside… I love you like I live a life!

Upfront on the porch, she stood dismayed, Closed down in the house, she felt the pain. For parents left her inside, saying it was unsafe, “The World outside is horrendous, baby and you are frail!” She wanted to know, she wanted to see, What the Universe out there, offered to thee. Books on the shelves brought out to her, A planet so elegant, full of glee! The blazing sun, the rattling leaves, At the age of 10, they felt so alluring. But that was not all, Mom tried convincing! One fine day, her Dad decided “Go out my princess and have a ride. Enjoy what you find so alive, But be aware of the dangers aside!” She set out with her best robes on Planning to watch the skies, all alone. The rains were beautiful and so was the sky, The place seemed new, she din’t know why! The day passed by dancing with joy. But as the eve approached, the goons came by. Experienced the fear for the first time live, Now she knew why her Daddy was gloomy...

Apprehension I had. Weird I felt. Din’t really know how it will go. How will I face her? Will she like me or she won’t? So much so went through me. I grew up with the woman I loved so much. I called her my ‘Ma’. It had not been a real long time that she conceived me. And since day 1, she was delicate to me; affectionately tending me. Cooling my mind down, when things went wrong. She was nothing but my life and I was hers. We shared a relation so beautiful. But in mind she knew, that I have to leave her soon. It was tough, but the fate. Nevertheless, she made me strong, independent and brilliant in my own accord. She knew after I go to the other lady, I would never be hers. It din’t deter her. I was adored, treasured and cherished. And came that day! I was inside my cocoon. Pampering me were all those who treasured me. They dressed me beautifully and gave me the best look. Dazzling in that silver over-all, I saw myself in the mirror, amazed as to how smart I was. Ma came d...

​ He loves, he fights; He smiles, he frowns; He creates, he destroys; He cares, he cribs; He caresses, he karates; He makes it all alive, he makes it all sad; He loves to see me smile, he enjoys to see my bad; He cuddles me to sleep, he hurdles my nights; Is there a chance, I choose the Other One?? I ask myself all the time. And that is when my mind takes over my heart, making me take some more time. It says I need not judge right away. But the pain given by the Other has gone out of the way. Don't know what way of expression is right, but the One I know is nothing short of my life.